Waking up at 4:00 is definitely not as easy as I thought. I did so well on Monday and Tuesday. The cold made the blankets feel even more inviting and warm. So yesterday I woke up, looked at my watch and turned on my other side and went straight back to sleep. I envisioned productive mornings where I would exercise, meditate and pray and best of all write my stories. In my vision this becomes a habit over time and helps me achieve all my goals and more. This morning was a little better. I snoozed my alarm for 30 minutes or was it more? Before I eventually woke up. I am starting to think that this plan need to start in summer – when it is warmer but a part of me knows this may just be an excuse to get out of it. I do feel proud that I did do my routine even if it was a little later and shorter. I guess I will just keep at it until it becomes a habit. I will shop around for some heaters this weekend to ward of the morning cold. No more excuses 🙂
I felt guilty about yesterday – for my poor show but decided to forgive myself.
A short poem about guilt.
Guilt burns holes in your heart & keep you up at night
It throws you off-balance.
“Why did I?” you ask yourself countless times.
Guilt weighs heavy on your heart.
It makes you doubt yourself.
It makes you wish you could go back in time;
to change the decisions you made.
No amount of guilt can change the lessons meant for you;
Forgive yourself & move on.